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I have some stuff I really want to get off my chest. I'm really trying to face my past and work on understanding it and understanding me. Though it's a long process that I have been working on for several years and it's hard and scary, I need to do it. I'm always telling others they need to face their pasts to be free. I need to listen to my own words. I know everything I say might not always make sense, and of course, you don't have to read it, but if you do read it you might understand me a bit better. And maybe you won't. Some of the things I have been through that really hurt me are looked at by society as not being that bad which makes it's even harder for me to do this. I know because most people think some of the things I've been through that really tore me apart aren't seen as being that bad that some people will read this and not understand. Some may read the things I am going to write and think I have no reason to be the way I am or have the problems I have. I urge you to keep in mind a few things. For one thing, everyone is given their own unique set of battles. No one else will ever face all the battles you do. Battles are sometimes physical and sometimes mental and often both. Sometimes our battles are different simply because we percieve an event or situation differently. Like a rainbow, we don't all see the exact same one. The battles we are given are meant for us. Given to anyone else, they would not be won. Only you are capable of fighting the battles you are given and only you are able to win them. Saying someones life hasn't been bad enough for them to hurt as much as they do is like saying someone else's life hasn't been good enough to be as happy or positive as they are. It goes both ways though people tend to forget. Saying someone has no reason to be depressed is like saying someone else has no reason to be happy. Sure some people have had it "worse" than you, but some people have had it "better" than you too. My point is, everyone has a right and a reason to feel the way they do and it is no one else's right to judge the validity of their emotions or thoughts. So if you decide to read what I write, then try to keep these things in mind.
I'm writing these things for me. But I am also writing these things for others so that they may be encouraged to face their past and their problems and so that they may see they are not alone.